Thursday, August 11, 2016

Dispirit of '76

My friend Maryann in Philadelphia has a boyfriend whose last name is Schmidt. I’ve not yet met him. The other day, I asked her in an email if she’s asked him if he’s seen the movie About Schmidt, since it’s, well, about Schmidt and all. The whole idea struck me as hilarious. I was thinking about how, should he respond that he hasn’t seen it, Maryann could mock-seriously question his self-awareness and his commitment to introspection. “It’s about Schmidt! How could you not be curious?”

Never mind that About Schmidt came out 14 years ago and was hardly a blockbuster. In it, Jack Nicholson plays a curmudgeonly retiree and recent widower who finds it difficult to relate to other people, including his daughter. His emotional breakthrough finally comes when he weeps for an African kid he’s never met, to whom he’s been sending money and letters through a charity organization. I knew when I asked Maryann the question that it was quite possible that her Schmidt had never so much as heard of the movie, let alone seen it. But I was pretty sure that Maryann, a film buff, at least had heard of About Schmidt. Which gave me the opening to ask my utterly hilarious question. Which of course, like many things that strike me as comic gold, went over like the proverbial lead zeppelin, per a comment by The Who’s Keith Moon that became (with a slight spelling change) the name of another iconic rock band.

Predictably in retrospect, Maryann earnestly wrote back, “I haven’t asked [boyfriend] if he’s seen About Schmidt. Is it good? Would I like it?” Cripes! I internally shouted the words of mad scientists in a hundred 1950s horror movies—“The fools! They know nothing of my work!” But I simultaneously understood that this gag was uproarious only to me, so what I wrote back was, “Never mind. That’s not the point. But yeah, I thought it was good, from what I remember.” I do suspect she’d like the flick, but that’s neither here nor there.

Anyway, the exchange got me to thinking about Jack Nicholson and, by extension, Gene Hackman. I say “by extension” because both actors were incredibly prolific for decades and then disappeared from films seemingly overnight. There are other actors and actresses and one-time media darlings in other realms who fall into this category, although I can’t name any at the moment. What they all have in common is that we—or at least I, but I don’t think I’m alone in this—only take note of their long absence from public view when they one day resurface on the cover of a supermarket tabloid, looking like the hideous portrait of Dorian Gray, gasping for one last breath beneath a headline alleging shocking elder abuse. Although the “facts” in the articles always seem dubious—was the housekeeper really force-feeding dog food to the former Oscar winner, and pounding on his bedsores with a baseball bat?—there’s the realization that the photo itself, while horribly unflattering, actually does accurately reflect what must be the age of the long out-of-sight, out-of-mind celebrity. It’s the moment at which we understand that, while we were going about our lives and not paying attention, yesterday’s stars were getting Old As Hell.

I just now Googled Jack Nicholson. It turns out that he’s 79. Which isn’t quite ancient, but, given the hard-charging life he’s led, it probably works out to most other people’s 90. According to Wikipedia, he hasn’t retired from films, but he’s very selective about his roles. The way I read this is, “Only cameos I can squeeze between my 10 am and 2 pm naps.” My guess is that Jack is hoping similarly-aged director Woody Allen can write him into the final minutes of a period piece about Casanova in which the great lover bags his final conquest—played by previous Allen cast member Scarlett Johansson—then dies a happy man.

In the long hiatus between my last blog post and this one, a lot has happened in both the big, wide world and my little one. High-profile police shootings. High profile-shootings of police. The nightclub deaths in Orlando. Brexit. The continued rise, then self-inflicted fall (fingers crossed it’s permanent) of Donald Trump. At our house, the biggest and worst news was the death on August 1 of our beloved cat Tess, who, beset with diabetes and other serious health issues for years, nevertheless had outlived her nine feline lives in relative comfort until she suddenly and dramatically gave up the ghost. We got a vet to make a house call and end her suffering.

Also, I turned 58 in early July, and at around the same time received in the mail a postcard inviting me to my 40-year high school reunion. Although it’s simple math—both 1958 + 58 and 1976 + 40 equal 2016—it’s somehow a lot to take in. I was talking about this over dinner in DC last night with my friend Erika, who I’ve known since college and see once or twice a year, as she lives locally. We hashed over old times, happy times, sad times, regrets and retirement plans, as two friends of a certain age will do. Neither of us could quite believe that we’re the age we are, the retirement talk notwithstanding. We don’t feel as if we’re on the cusp of 60. We look nothing like those scary walking-dead celebrities in the tabloids, if we do say so ourselves. (That written, I’d like to give a tip of the hat to hair dyes.) When Erika and I talked last night about the upcoming post-work phase of our lives, it was with enthusiasm for the activities we plan to pursue, not dread of the senescence into which we eventually may sink. Still, time does march on.

This 40th high school reunion thing is a bit of a conundrum for me—and not because attending it would confirm what’s undeniable anyway—that I’m old enough to be having a 40th high school reunion. Rather, it’s a question of motives, utility, and who else will be there.

I remember my 20th high school reunion as if it was yesterday. I’d attended it neither for the joy of seeing hundreds of former classmates I barely knew as a teenager—I wasn’t popular and had only a small clique of friends—nor to reinvigorate my school spirit. I attended zero football games in the three years I attended Grimsely Senior High School in Greensboro, North Carolina, and I have no absolutely recollection of how the school’s sports teams fared during those years. Last-period pep rallies were my cue to drive to nearby Krispy Kreme for a late-afternoon doughnut or three. But I knew that a few key former classmates would be at that 20-year reunion, so I wanted to see them. I also had it in mind to show off Lynn to anyone who might have thought, back in the Gerald Ford years, that a pudgy one-handed doofus like me would never marry, period, let alone score a fox. (Probably no one had even considered my future marital status, but that lonely scenario had been my own working assumption.) Also, by 1996 I wasn’t pudgy anymore. In fact, I fancied that I looked pretty damn good at age 38, all things considered. As the date neared, I savored the prospect of wearing a name tag bearing a yearbook photo of fat-faced Eric Ries.

I deemed that 20th reunion a success. I had some great conversations with people I hadn’t seen in years, although I also drank too much and missed some other opportunities. I enjoyed the fact that several people almost didn’t recognize me (until they spotted the telltale empty sleeve) because I’d aged for the better and not (per many former sports stars and cheerleaders) for the worse. Lynn had a good time. I felt proud to have her as my date for the evening and my partner in life.

But now it’s 20 years later, as hard as that is to believe. One of the classmates with whom I spoke at length that night in 1996 killed herself last year. My closest friend from my high school class already has told me he hasn’t the time off, spare cash or inclination to drive over from the eastern part of the state. I’m not on Facebook, so I don’t keep up with a vast network of peripheral friends and acquaintances the way a lot of people do, but I’ve put out a few email feelers to former classmates who I’d like to see. No answers yet.

With Tess’s death, Lynn is freed from her intensive care needs, and we can leave our dog Bean with friends. My mom has long griped about never seeing Lynn when I visit Greensboro, so the reunion weekend would be as good a time as any for us to visit with my parents, who are even older than Jack Nicholson. But, what if none of the people I want to show up can make it? What point will it serve to spend a few hours milling around awkwardly in a refurbished downtown theater amid a bunch of near-strangers, while overenthusiastic emcees and cheesy music seek to gin up nostalgia for a time and place that I’d in many ways just as soon forget, and largely have? Do I want to be dragging Lynn into that situation, however game she might be?

On the other hand, maybe I’d look around the room and determine that time hasn’t ravaged me to the extent that it has others, and that’d make me feel good about myself. Perhaps I’d surprise myself by feeling real kinship with a group of people with whom I share only a thin slice of the past, but many of whom I’m unlikely ever to see again. Still, are those sufficient reasons to plunk down nearly a hundred bucks for the two of us and Do This Thing?

At the moment I’m thinking probably yes. Especially if my emails bear fruit, but perhaps even if not. Because, however young I may feel in my mind that I am, the cold, hard facts are that I’m old and getting older. It'll only be a few hours of my time, and it could be fun. It probably won’t be dreadful. Anyway, there’ll be alcohol, although I’d best go a little easier on that this time around.

I feel that I’ve got plenty of life in me yet. But as Jack Nicholson, Gene Hackman and other once-hot celebrities attest, in the seeming blink of an eye you can come to resemble a sad victim of time (and, possibly, of cruel caretakers as well). So, I’m thinking that maybe I should engage with my fellow members of the Class of 1976 at least one more time while we’re all still upright and lucid.

Maybe I’ll even outline the About Schmidt gag to somebody, since I’ll have no investment in his or her reaction. Maybe somebody will get it, and will laugh. That would be sweet. A happy memory to consider 10 years from now, when the next reunion postcard arrives in the mail.

3 comments:

NeighborKath said...

Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ah!

rolling on the floor,
laughing,
about schmidt!

jocularity and hilarity!

Jane Andrews said...

Actually, I find Gene Hackman sexier now than before. Although he was sexy enough to get by with in the seventies. Robert Deniro has also retained his allure, witness the not very good movie "Dirty Grandpa." What's making me sad these days is the death of Gene Wilder. Some people should just not be allowed to die. He's one of them. Ries, as everyone knows, is timeless. Some aspects have changed, but the core Ries is still there. It gives one hope.

NY Friend said...

Being a year older than you, I fully sympathize + 1. On top of that, we have "empty nest" which I didn't think would bother us and really bothers us! We are thrust into the Next Phase of Life, like it or not. To boot, no one in my high school class could muster the interest in organizing our 40th reunion. Maybe facebook fills that need. Anyway, I really enjoyed my 35th and it let me reconnect with some friends that I now see every Christmas (don't seem to need the other 569 members of my class.) I hope you went (or are going ) to the reunion. You'll have a lot of fun and if you don't, well, blow that pop stand and hit Krispy Kreme. And yeah, Lynn is a big time babe.
Sorry about Tess. Now you guys can visit us. I'll cook oatmeal.